This is my first night with my blog. I've always considered getting one, but with my life I never really saw the point. I never really had much happen to me that I felt was worth sharing with the world but now I suppose I do. I have a little boy now, he's nearly 6 months. I love him to death but he's really a pain in the ass sometimes. He's lactose intolerant which means he gets the most expensive formula on the market and, since I'm still trying to nurse him, I have given up my beloved cows milk and replaced it with vanilla soy. The soy milk is good just has a funny aftertaste. No cheese, no eggs, no ice cream, jesus if I wanted to live like this, I'd have been a vegetarian. But I'll do anything for my little guy. At this point in time, Dad's sleeping. It's almost 5 am and he's got a super important interview tomorrow afternoon. Glad he can get a job. I'm really going nuts always being in this house. I guess I wouldn't mind so much if I didn't feel as if I was doing this parenting this completely alone. Sure, he helps but not very much. I mean, he's half Cuban so he's got a temper. Don't really have to say that he doesn't deal with a screaming, crying baby all too well. He can only stand to be around our son when he's not crying and is in a happy mood, otherwise it's ALL me. I can't even do ANYTHING on my own cause he REFUSES to watch the baby alone. Although, he gets to go out and hang out with his friends, and have a job, and run around and whatnot. I can't tell you the last time I did any of that by myself. Sigh sometimes I really do miss my life pre-baby. Damnit, that marks the third time in the last 10 minutes that I've gotten up to give the baby his pacifier back as he bounces in his exersaucer, so he wouldn't whine.
I feel like such a lazy mom sometimes. We can't afford toys for the baby, and I play with him a lot, but mainly he's just sitting in his saucer or swing... I do a lot, but I just feel like I'm not doing enough. It seems I spend more time trying to get him to sleep than anything else. Ugh I could ramble all night but I suppose I should try to get some sleep considering I'll be doing EVERYTHING tomorrow. Again.
